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| Things that are bothering me... |
[ | | Tue, 08 Dec 2009 | 2:49 pm | | ] |
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*I wish that people would stop expecting me to take retail/factory jobs. When I tried to get one a couple years ago before the economy went bad, all 20 places that I applied to, even Walmart slammed their doors in my face. Clearly, I'm not meant for those types of jobs. In 2009 Fox Valley Tech opened their doors to me despite my lisp and emotional problems. I still don't know what to do with my life but maybe it might lead to something that might really make me happy, once I get through a career type class in the spring. And what if I end up becoming a stay at home mother and like it? This happened to another one of my friends who went to college and was sure to be a vet for the past 14 years. I'm just saying that everyone is different and they all lead different paths in life. I just wish people would respect that and not try to control them with their opinions on what we should do.
*I wish I had more supportive and understanding friends in person. I've lost many of them this year due to life changes mostly and I feel alone because of it. I just wish I didn't feel so far behind while everyone else gets married, have kids, go after the career of their choices or move to Japan for the next five years.... *sigh*
*I still wish that I can move out of this apartment building. Now I'm having toilet problems again and I smell mold coming from somewhere, plugging up my sinuses. This place is still driving me crazy. Shouldn't home be a place where people can easily rest and feel at ease instead of constantly stressed?
*And last and definitely least, I wish I had a boyfriend. They're not high on my priority list anymore, in fact I just don't feel the desire to be honest. Sometimes I just long for companionship and experience so I can reach out to those who are in relationships and do a better job supporting them. I just hate the fact I couldn't help my friend when her boyfriend had hurt her badly... but listen to her vent.
and that is all.
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[ | | Tue, 08 Dec 2009 | 2:30 pm | | ] |
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[ | | Mon, 07 Dec 2009 | 8:51 am | | ] |
Dear Sam.
Please tell me what the hell is going on. You know that I'm always worrying about you. And no matter how many times you tell me to stop, I'm not going to. Because I love you so much, and I've sort of taught myself to think the worst is happening. So when you just text "i'm sorry." and none of my texts will go through, because presumably your phone's now off, I'm terrified. This just brings back all the memories from eighth grade. Do you know how many nights I'd cry myself to sleep, thinking "this is it. This time, he's finally gone."? I don't want to relive all of that. I can't. I don't know how the hell I'm going to go on if you're not here. Screw it, I'm not going to go on without you.
I'm sorry if I did something to make you mad. I always find a way to mess things up, don't I? I won't mind if you tell me to fuck off, just let me know that you're not dead.
Please. I really need you.
K.
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| Between the pain of goodbye and falling in love |
[ | | Mon, 07 Dec 2009 | 4:57 pm | | ] |
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Dear Adrian,
I thought I'm just gonna be fine when I didn't grab a chance to see you for the last time before you really leave this country. I thought it's just enough to ask someone send me my greeting for you before the time insisted you to forsake this place. But the truth is I'm hurt. Even if I'm hoping by at least sending a greeting, you would still know how much I really wanted to bid you goodbye and see you on your last day here.
I'm hurt. I thought I could be so strong and numb. But in fact I also cannot let it just go. I thought I won't cry but apparently I couldn't stop my tears falling. No, I'm not regret, because I've learned many times that regret's a waste of time. Don't think I'm sad for losing you. Good friends won't be losing each other no matter how long they're separated, right? It's just I'm sorry I didn't show up on the day you went away. Please don't forget me as your friend. Please don't forget our friendship. Trust me sincerely, I miss us.
Forever yours,
Amaranth
Dear boy who works at the Cafe,
I could not forget how the silence had made me fallen into you. Underneath your black t-shirt and faded blue jeans, I never thought that there is even a charisma in such simplicity. And I reminded that I can see that you are different from most working class boys I ever meet, right from the first time I saw your face. I just want to know you a little bit more ever since then.
Please, do receive my greeting along with blessing, from me who always missing you.
Curiously yours,
The girl who won't look cold and always book sits inside
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| Dear "Puppet Master," |
[ | | Mon, 07 Dec 2009 | 1:16 am | | ] |
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You're a bitch. I hate you. Why can't you just move away? How come you can't just leave my friends and I alone? Why do you have to be such a homewrecker?
Thanks for not being there for me. Thanks for laughing in my face when I was crying. Thanks for betraying me. I really do like this knife in my back, it brings out my eyes.
It's good to know that you know how to be a bitch as opposed to a friend.
I know that I have a target on my back, just as friend 1 and friend 2 had. I know what to expect.
But guess what? You're friends are getting antsy. They're going to turn on you, soon. And I'm just going to stay low on your list and wait. I wanna see the revolution. I want to see the day where they finally have had enough of your shit and rebel against you. I'm waiting for the moment where I can say, "Ha, and you guys never believed me!" I want to show them that I knew all along what kind of a person you were. And that I knew you were just a bored puppet master with tons of charm. I'm going to tell them that they were only puppets to you. You never cared about them. But not until this revolution, will I severe all ties I have with you.
I'll forget I even knew you. I've done it before, it shouldn't be any different this time.
I guess all I have left to say to you is: FUCK YOU. YOU CAN KISS MY ASS, BITCH.
Never will I let you hurt me again.
Sincerely,
"A Real Girl, Not A Puppet"
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| another day.....another happy pill |
[ | | Tue, 08 Dec 2009 | 3:29 pm | | ] |
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I wish I could actually hate you as much as I say I do.
I wish you werent stupid enough to gt yourself arrested again.
I wish you were gonna be here for christmas with our son.
I wish I didn't care at all....
I wish my boyfriend could let me inside.
I wish he could show me how he feels.
I wish he didn't hide in this "shell" when things were bad.
I wish he could give me the time with him that I desperately need.
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[ | | Sun, 06 Dec 2009 | 11:10 pm | | ] |
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dear pink floyd,
thank you for existing. for making some of the most amazing music ever created. for being there for me over the past five and a half years.
your music helped me to discover and appreciate all kinds of music. it has calmed me, it has excited me, it has tripped me out.
i wish i could express more eloquently how deeply your music has affected my life. i know i'm just another one of your many millions of fans, and i'm sure each of you has heard it many times before, but i truly love and appreciate everything you guys have contributed to music. you are all fantastic people, as well. i hope you know that.
i don't think i will ever stop listening to you guys, and i hope to someday introduce you to my own children, in hopes of inspiring them as well.
love you!
allegra
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[ | | Mon, 07 Dec 2009 | 12:05 am | | ] |
Dear K,
I wish you would've told me that you and the boy that i've liked for three years (and you knew i liked him) were going to start dating; actually telling it to my face instead of changing your relationship status on facebook. I also wish that you would stop making me feel so small when ever you're around him. He's my best friend, but once you come into the picture, I get ripped right out of the picture. I miss my best friend, the one I was always natural with and who knew so much about me as I did with him; but now I can't even talk to him without thinking that you're saying all this mean stuff about me and thinking that i'm trying to steal him away from you.
Oh, and yes; it is six months since you guys started dating - and yes, i still have feelings for him.
And you have no idea how much that kills me.
From,
S.▲
ps: i also hate it when you talk about him to our college friends when im sitting RIGHT THERE.
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[ | | Mon, 07 Dec 2009 | 1:10 am | | ] |
Dear x,
Please stop toying with my emotions. I liked you for a long and tumultuous time however, nothing ever came of our relationship. This was due to the fact that you were both ashamed of me and confused about what you wanted. I do not think It's fair on me to constantly insinuate and imply feelings and attraction once again because we both know you are too cowardly to act upon it. I'm not making the first move in fact, I will be making no moves at all. Don't get me wrong, I love you as a friend. However, I will no reciprocate those romantic feelings again because of the way you treated me. So when I meet up with you do not try to kiss, touch, romantically hug or even suggest a physical relationship. I do not want one with you now or ever and I think we're best of that way.
Sincerely,
Acid star.
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| Why |
[ | | Sun, 06 Dec 2009 | 1:53 am | | ] |
I hate you.
I'm pretty sure I hate you more than I love you.
RIght now I hate you so much I wish you would just crash your car and I could be done with this roller coaster of emotions and tears and shit.
Because I fucking hate you.
Christmas. How do I fake to my whole family that we are still together when we skipped Thanksgiving?
Why are you such an asshole?
Why can't I you leave me alone?
Why did I let you talk me into coming back three weeks after Halloween and right before Thanksgiving.
And why did I skip my family on Thanksgiving to be with you and then you argue with me and I spend it alone drinking vodka in my living room. Alone.
Why can't I just text you how much I hate you?
Because I still fucking love you.
And I hate myself for it. I hate you.
Why?
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| Dear World: |
[ | | Sun, 06 Dec 2009 | 2:44 am | | ] |
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Dear World,
How much you have hated me over the ages...
First, you hated me for being black. Then you hated me for being female. Now you hate me because I'm gay. When that's finally deemed acceptable, I wonder what you'll hate me for next...
No Love,
ANW
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| Kim Jong-il bans World Cup coverage - unless North Korea win |
[ | | Tue, 08 Dec 2009 | 7:28 pm | | ] |
Kim Jong-il, the North Korean leader, has banned the World Cup from being shown in his country – unless they win.
The Supreme Leader has ordered state-run television not to broadcast live games, and to only screen highlights of North Korea's victories.
The ruling means that 99 per cent of the country's 29 million population will not be able to find out who wins the competition unless the 350-1, outsiders win it.
Games between other nations will be banned from the airwaves, while any highlights of North Korea's matches will be heavily edited to ensure that they look like the better team.
( Read more... )
Source: telegraph.co.uk
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| MBLAQ STARTS PROMOTING G.O.O.D LUV |
[ | | Tue, 08 Dec 2009 | 10:09 pm | | ] |
sr : LEVI @ BEZTIZ
reup : LINH @ absolutemblaq
finalllyyyyyy~~~
G.O.O.D LUV promotion!
so cant wait! :)
WITH NEW DANCE MOVESSS!!!!! :D
will edit this post when i find the date for this new song promotion.. :D
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